After Awhile

Seems just like yesterday, yet at the same time so far away. It is beyond me what I must learn, what I must do to progress through this life of mine. So strange that in one millionth of one second an entire life can change. Yes I am stronger, but remain in a state of nostalgia. It is unclear to me the purpose of this. I have hopes and dreams. I am happy. Yet, who am I anymore other than mommy?? Re-discovering at my age,32, not sure my peers feel the same. Just have to set my focus...get out of this dream fantasy in my mind and re-invent myself. Anyone who has lost someone so close to them and burdened with so much responsibility afterward at the same time could relate I am sure. Just not as common, I guess.